I feel like I have been in "mommy mode" for too many days straight. I love being "mom", but sometimes I just keep going and going and forget I have pieces of me that aren't being fulfilled or I don't even know what isn't being filled. Between kid's parties and chauffeuring kids around town I didn't even realize I have not even read a book for myself in weeks until today.
Saturday, both kids were gone and I was alone for two hours. You would think I had a list activities of grown up fun ready to go. Instead, I felt lost and sad so I called my grandmother who pretty much laughed at me. I was calling her from a dark library parking lot with expired books in the trunk.
So, I went to the outdoor mall to kids stores and the bookstore. Just pathetic really. I ended up buying a crazy Halloween Felix inspired ceramic cat head. Even more pathetic. I was thrilled when the party mom called me to pick her up a little early. MOST pathetic is I was already driving there. Who doesn't know what to do with themselves for two hours? Who buys giant ceramic Felix the Cat inspired heads?
So in true mom fashion, I refuse to be caught in that predicament again. I'm going to have to come up with five things to do if I have no kids for two hours and report back with the results. I think they have to be places where kids are not even allowed to enter...I'll list them from common places to those I'd be embarrassed to be caught alone in....
1. See an R rated movie. I have not seen a rated r movie in a theater in over 15 years.
2. Call a friend and have them teach me card games at a bar.
3. Call a friend who has no kids to meet me at a restaurant bar.
4. Go to a bar alone for a drink (do women even GO to bars to be alone)?
5. Hit an adult store and pretend to be very savvy.
Maybe I'll just go to Sephora to play with make up. *sob* It should NOT be this hard!
I'm feeling like I need the *mostest pathetic award ever* to have 3 things on my list of five items that involve drinking.